Mommy Guilt

Yesterday I had my first real experience of mommy guilt. I was in DIRE need of a haircut. I totally destroyed my hair at the hospital... not brushing it for 4 days after being in labor and having a c-section can do that to it. I needed a haircut to begin with as well and its been horribly hot. So, last night my parents were here and I asked if they would watch him for a quick hour while I just ran down the road to get a quick cut. Nothing fancy, just quick. I had fed him and as soon as he drifted off to sleep I ran out the door. I left my parents with a sterile bottle and a little pumped milk, just in case. I got home 45 minutes later to a hysterical baby who apparently woke up about 10 minutes after I left the house. My parents tried everything to calm him and were just about to feed him when I walked in the door. I felt horrible! How could I leave him?! I almost cried as I sat there feeding him. I know he was fine, and he did have food so he would have calmed down, but the immense sense of guilt was overwhelming! I have to leave him tomorrow for 3 - 4 hours... its going to be so hard!!